This new life that I face is filled with incredible challenges. I can put on a happy face and pretend that everything is ok, but in reality, I want to be healed so badly. I want to be able to walk and run and hike and dance. I want to be able to get dressed or go to the bathroom like a normal person. I could never have fathomed the frustration that stems from this type of an injury. Everything is different...more difficult...and I just want to be normal.
I ask The Lord every day to heal me, but in reality, he is not a magic genie. Jesus did not come to make every challenge or hardship or struggle go away. He did not come so that my life would be simple or comfortable. His purpose in coming here was to bring glory to himself. If I treat him like a genie and seek Him for the sole purpose of solving my problems, he does not receive glory in my life. If I shift my mindset, however, and realize that by coming here Jesus has given me HOPE and the ability to stand up underneath all of these frustrations even if they are never healed or solved, the result is praise towards him.
Jesus is not my personal magic genie. Nor would I want Him to be. He is the SON of the GOD of the UNIVERSE. He is the bread of life. He is everything. Eat of His flesh and drink of His blood and we will be saved. He came to save my soul and to give to me the bread of life so that even under the weight of paralysis and all of the frustrations stemming from it, I will be FULL. I will be SAVED. I will have the strength to STAND.
My response to this will always be praise. What an awesome and eternal God we serve.
Love, Kaitlin
This is so beautiful! Kaitlin, you are such an inspiration. It's so amazing that you're able to stay so strong and continue to grow in Christ in the midst of the storm. I've really enjoyed this blog and I see God's heart at work in your words. He is with you.
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