Our whole family has been on a roller coaster of emotions and thought. Who controls an accident of this nature? Is it man’s will, Satan’s attack, or God’s providence? Or is an accident a random event, not controlled but just a happening?
The Bible indicates that God is sovereign and in control. Isaiah 46:9 “I am God, and there is no other, I am God, and there is none like me. I made known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.” Isaiah 45:7 says “I form the light and create darkness, I bring prosperity and create disaster, I the Lord, do all these things.” Yet God also loves us, and doesn’t want to harm us as written in Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Is it possible that God allows hard events to happen in our lives- including pain and accidents, because he has our best interest at heart? A friend once said to me, “Our perfect Lord allows chaos so that we can develop a perfect hope in Him.” As our family and community have been wounded by Kait’s injury, I have observed that we are leaning more heavily upon God, and that our dependence on God is refining our hope in Him. If I believe in an eternal hope beyond this existence, and place my trust in the character of God, then I can start to find peace in the words from Isaiah 43:18-19 that says, “Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?”
My theology is now being tested. When I sit by Kait and watch her sleep, I’m racked with emotions of guilt, fear and loss of dreams for my son and his beautiful bride. I weep and lament. I beg God to reverse this senseless event. I beg God to be merciful and allow Kait to walk. I’m racked with sorrow. My heart is shredded but somehow continues to beat. Then by my will I attempt to trump my emotions, by realizing the Biblical truth that God is in control, and allow my mind to settle my spirit by the realization that God is totally in this with our families and community. God has a plan and it’s a good plan- the best plan. It just hasn’t been revealed to us yet.
As the flight-for-life helicopter was leaving the ground with Kait aboard, and we were about to get into the car for the long drive to Swedish Hospital, my mind seemed to clear for a moment. I said to my son John, “I only know three things: we can’t change the past, we need to be in a posture of gratitude to the Lord, and we are called to not be anxious about the future”. I trust, I pray, I hope.
Just some hope for you all....my heart aches and I have never met you.....but this I know...Jesus said "OCCUPY" until I come (Luke 19:13) and he told us to heal the sick, ...raise the dead.....(Matthew 10:8) and that by His stripes, we were healed (Isaiah 53:4-5) ....since the fall there's been evil. God is sovereign, but he wants us to co-labor with Christ and occupy until He comes....(1 Corinthians3:9)...I'm not usually one to drop a bunch of scripture references, but I do feel that God had me do that for you today...as HOPE. To CLING to....as TRUTH. SHARPER THAN ANY SWORD OR WEAPON formed against you....I am crying out for Kaitlin to walk. I know that the WORD is alive, and sharper than any two-edged sword...help us yield it Lord and show us your goodness specifically through Kaitlin's journey, Lord~ I'm asking for supernatural faith for healing of Kaitlin.....~ help us Lord...
ReplyDeleteI just found out about this terrible accident and injury to your dear daughter-in-law and I am so sorry to know that you and your family are going through such an amazingly difficult time. I wanted you to know how I found out about this, as it may bring you some comfort to know your family's faith and strength are bringing hope and affirmation to those unknown to you. A friend of mine, from a bible study, sent an email with the link to this blog. Her daughter is a friend of Kaitlin, and she wanted to share your family's story. She wanted to share the story so that we might be able to pray, reach out, help, and find hope in the way you all openly profess your faith and hope in the Lord throughout this struggle. Your family's faith throughout your ordeal, shared through this blog, is reaching many and is a heartfelt and humbling testimony of continued faith and hope throughout hardship and unbelievable challenges. I hold you all close in prayer ~ praying for healing, hope, and peace throughout this ordeal. I hope that we can provide some help to you and your family and I will email Paula to see what we may be able to do ~ in His love, Barb Brown
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